Got the Blues...

So my boyfriend (a.k.a. my muse/Alpha Nerd/Geek-boy/cuddlemonster) is 5 hours away for the next few days at a conference, and I miss him SO much already even though he only left yesterday. And brooding and listening to depressing music isn't working like it did when he went to Greece for a week. :(

I've been feeling really confrontational as well. I almost got into a fight yesterday afternoon (in the middle of physics class, no less) after he left.

Aaaand my brother's failing history so now my mom is yelling at him because he won't graduate if he doesn't pass the course. Fun times. I hate this house sometimes.

Well, that's depressing

So there's this girl. And she's all kinds of straight (well...no, I suppose there's just the one kind). And she's a really good friend of mine. And I can't get over the fact that I'm totally in love with her. She knows, when I told her I have feelings for her she pretty much just said "I can't say I feel the same way, as I'm only into guys. You are an awesome friend, though". Which...only made me love her even more. Now I can't stop thinking about her, and I'm afraid we're going to end up with this weird unrequited love thing going on. And I dread the possibility she'll decide to do some "experimenting" and see me as the obvious choice, although knowing her I don't think she'd do that to me. On the other hand, it'd be just as hard to see her with another girl, even understanding why.

.../emo rant

Ooh, and I found this pic on DA (by Drasonae):

Good feeling gone

Not even George & Alastair's super-up-cheering powers can help with this one.

I was talking to an old friend of mine on msn and asked her if she wanted to go catch a movie this weekend and she said she couldn't because her sister's visiting and it made me realize how much I miss her but then I realized that I just miss being normal and not being able to recite a massive list of people I 'used to know' and I hate myself for thinking this but I hate her because she's the only person I know who can make me cry and it's really fucking hard to type when you can't see the screen and now my nose is all drippy and I have to go get a kleenex.

This sucks.